I have decided to write this post after a lot of thought.
I haven't been keeping up with my blog posts etc as of late mainly because to be quite honest with you.
Iv been struggling to cope. Or atleast that's how I have been feeling these last couple of weeks.
I always knew having a second baby would be testing but maybe I didn't realise how hard on times it can be.
This last week my daughter had a uti and became very clingy to me and my son has been full up of a cold and struggling with his reflux aswell as having to attend a scan for his kidneys and my own problems to deal with too. To top this off my partner works 12 hour shifts, so to say iv been feeling stressed is an understatement.
In all honesty, and I feel guilty even saying this, but I got a bit fed up of being a mum! I love my kids to pieces don't get me wrong but some days they're little angels other days, well they're far from that! Some days I just don't have the energy to deal with them.
But as a mum I'm sure we all feel like this from time to time.
What could I do?
Well not an awful lot really. My friends don't live that near to me and my family is only small and they work during the week.
So I soldiered on as best I could. Yes I had a bit of a cry and a rant at my partner he is a great support though, and does try to help out as much as he can and he took the kids out for the day to give me a bit of a break.
I guess sometimes I just feel like my life is revolved around cooking, cleaning, washing and wiping dirty bums!
I wouldn't wish it away though, although on times I do wish the day to go a little faster!