After the birth of my second baby. A beautiful boy I started to feel not quite right.
It must have been when he was around 5 months old.
Here is a list of the symptoms I experienced;
* Tired - but not just any tired, constantly tired. No matter how much sleep I had when I woke up I was still tired. I would find myself going for a nap in the middle of the day and then falling asleep on the sofa around 8/9pm every night. I remember one day I woke around 7am and by 2pm I was exhausted I went for a lye down and my husband woke me up at 6pm! I couldn't believe the time. I think if he hadn't have woken me I probably would have slept till the morning. Even though I had that nap I still fell asleep on the sofa around 9pm.
* Low Mood - I remember thinking what the hell's wrong with me?! Why am I always so emotional and down beat. I have two gorgeous babies and an amazing husband and I just feel kind of depressed!
* No Energy / Motivation - these two kind of go hand in hand with each other. I guess as I was so tired all the time it was wearing me out doing the simplest things. This sounds so bad to me saying it now, but back then I didn't even have the energy or motivation to play with my children. I would just sit there and watch them and if my daughter came up to me I would tell her to go and play with something. I just wanted to be left alone. I had no motivation to do the things like I once used to do and love.
* Irritability - short temper, angry, pushing people away.
* Weight Gain and Bloating
* Muscle cramps - I already have chondromalacia in my knees so the added cramps I was experiencing in my calfs made it even harder to get around.
* Sensitive to the cold - my husband is used to me wearing his hoodies to bed now! I have about 3 layers on and the duvet and I'm only just about warm!
My husband had started to worry and would ask me questions all the time. In the end he persuaded me to go the doctors. So I went.
In my mind I could only see one possible explanation.
I thought I had post natal depression.
Once at the doctors I told my GP that I thought I had PND. I remember feeling like such a bad mum and I even cried in front of my doctor. My doctor took some blood tests and a week later I was called in to go and see her.
I don't know what I was expecting but the moment I walked into the doctors office, she said to me "well no wonder you felt the way you were feeling". Not only did I have hypothyroidism but I was also low in iron, which meant I am also anaemic.
I remember thinking hypo what?
Hypothyroidism is an under active thyroid. It means the thyroid gland (butterfly shaped in your neck) isn't producing enough hormones. Most cases are caused by your immune system attacking your thyroid or by damage to your thyroid such as thyroid cancer.
It affects 15 in every 1,000 women in the UK, and can be hereditary.
It can be treated by a daily dose of tablets (levothyroxine) which I will be on for the rest of my life.
If left untreated an under active thyroid can lead to complications such as heart disease, infertility, goitre and a life threatening condition called myxoedema coma.
Now that I am on the right medication I am finally starting to feel better. I am not yet 100% better as it can take around a year for you to find your right dose but as my dose is increased I'm feeling better and better.
Never ignore your own body, if you don't feel right listen to yourself and your family and seek help and advice.